I have no idea how I've let it get to this point. I try and I try to be a good mom. But I do get pushed over the edge more than I should, and it seems when I go over... everyone else does too. Emotions are always on high heat on the front burner. I need to learn to relax and chill out. My almost 4 year old daughter has noticed that mommy is too strict. She's noticed that I treat her and my almost 2 year old son differently. But that's just it.. that's not my intent. I'm not used to not knowing what to do. Every day that I look at my children my heart grows fonder and full of love. I love them more with each sun rise and a million times more by the time it sets that evening. I want to show it better. I want them to know it. I don't want them thinking that I'm mean. I adore them so much. Maybe I should be taking parenting classes online. Are there any anti-chronic-depressive-anonymous classes?! I know I have to do something. I have prayed about it. But I need to straighten up and realize that I have 3 other lived intertwined in my own life.
To Me: "get it together, stop stressing out and quit trying to get everything to go your way. It's never been your way before... get over it!"
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